January 19, 2009

Insight of the Day

how amazing this world wide web can be...

Dear yvonne,

"I don't believe in pessimism. If something doesn't come up the way you want, forge ahead. If you think it's going to rain, it will."

Clint Eastwood
Actor and Director

thank you Clint! (feeling close *grin*)

obviously, this is such a boink in my head after ranting my heart out in my previous post this morning.

yes, yes, i won't believe in pessimism anymore! yatta for positive thinking! :D

Some days are just not better

so this is one of my "not so" good days. i admit i'm being pessimistic for quite awhile now. this inspite of the positive "insights of the day" i receive in my email and some other "law of attraction" articles.

a lot of things are just running circles in my head. sometimes i convince myself to lie low from all the hassles and worries but there's no denying that i simply can't avoid it. its hard to forgive myself for worrying too much of some things that are yet to happen. that's just me...a worry-freak!but in fairness, im almost in the opposite side now. crawling myself really hard to get there. but see, i can't do this alone. i need other people to help me out. and i am freakingly expecting this from my loved ones - family, closest friends (if i have one), and yes from the boyfriend.

many times, i felt that its only this little nook that is giving me comfort. i can write anything, anytime. i can rant and rave and i feel peaceful and happy afterwards even if i don't get any response. i admit, im badly longing for this kind of comfort, to say the least *sigh*.

but of course, i still want to be on track. i still want to believe in magic and miracles. i still want to believe that this year is my year, that this year something grand will happen. that this year, all my dreams will come true. i still want to but some days are just not better...

January 18, 2009

To All my Blogmates...

i've been really busy preparing for something which explains my silence in the past few days. but aside from that, i hate to check this blog because i've lost some of my widgets and that includes my linklist. *crying out loud*

i felt such a loser coz i tried editing my layout weeks ago but don't know how to retrieve my original codes *sigh*. so in my frustration, i tinkered more and finally was able to bring back my original layout and some. but my link list, still nowhere to be found :(

so to all who visits my little nook, please do leave your links so i can visit yours too :D i have to apologize coz i have this little problem with my memory :-(

January 05, 2009


in this world full of uncertainties, we need inspiration to keep us going. may it be from people, books or just the mundane.

i just want to share these lines i read from the blog of one of the inspiring people i know, Aileen Siroy.

"And I will continue to always learn, try, give my best, become better, and love -- love without measure.

I will continue to believe in goodness, in infinite possibilities, in second chances, in true friendships, in undying love, in magic and miracles.

And I will continue to have kindness in my life. And laughter. And courage. And happiness. And adventure. And love. Lots of love."

i am reading this everyday, again, to remind me to be always positive and to always always give importance to the things that really matter.

January 03, 2009

Life is Beautiful!!!

The roller coaster is my life; life is a fast, dizzying game; life is a parachute jump; it’s taking chances, falling over and getting up again; it’s mountaineering; it’s wanting to get to the very top of yourself and to feel angry and dissatisfied when you don’t manage it. If I believe that the track is my destiny and that God is in charge of the machine, then the nightmare becomes something thrilling. It becomes exactly what it is, a roller coaster, a safe, reliable toy, which will eventually stop, but, while the journey lasts, I must look at the surrounding landscape and whoop with excitement.
(Eleven Minutes, Coelho)

photo by: my good friend mian

i am reposting from her site to remind me how i should see LIFE right NOW inspite of the many uncertainties. (this aside that the lines were taken from one my fave Coelho books)

January 01, 2009

my 2009 Dream List

WRITE it down and MAKE it HAPPEN!

but my roomie and i, made something different last night. instead of really writing it down, we cut out pictures, phrases and unleashed our creative talents by making a collage of the things that we want to achieve for this year of the ox. (we really had fun doing this)

here's me sharing to you my list and my pieace of art *grin*

and to really let Mr. Universe know that we are bloody serious about this LAW of ATTRACTION theme, we posted it in our pretty wall, so we could read and remind him EVERYDAY.


'lil brother

i took this picture before he left for their class christmas party.
mama told him, they're going to wear "civilian" for the party
he got mad coz he thought, "civilian" is some kinda uniform
i told him its just nice polo and pants
he complied and asked me to put on some gel on his hair.

yesterday, mama saw him staring to nowhere while lying in bed
she asked, "what's wrong?"
he said, "i miss the two ladies" while wiping his eyes
she asked, "who?"
he said, "the two ladies who just left"
(my sister left for dubai last dec 26 and i followed on the 27th)

few hours ago, i spoke to him through ym
we talked for almost an hour
i asked him if he misses me
he said, he has been crying for days
"mingaw man ko nimo", he uttered
he told me to bring him here in sg during his summer vacation
i said, i will.

he is only 7 years old
my only brother and our youngest
you bet, he is spoiled.
coz he came 16 years after my youngest sister.
he is our angel and our miracle.