Trying the Art of Letting Go.

everyday is a struggle for me. yes, until now.
everyday, i realize that i am still a work in progress.

today, i am trying my best to let go...

- of the painful past
- of impatience
- of negative emotions
- of overthinking
- of being super sensitive
- of friends??? uuhhhmmm, unhealthy friends.

all these absorb my energy. everytime, i try to exert effort to entertain, i end up really frustrated, disappointed and drained all at the same time.

Mixed Emotions

what a comeback!

i was certainly in total hibernation for awhile like almost a month since my last post. i admit i didn't have the desire to write something even if i was in such rollercoaster ride in the past weeks. i don't know. it maybe pure laziness or something else.

and then just today, i was reminded. i suddenly felt i have no one except myself to cling on to. (here i am again expecting a lot from other people). i am total wreck! i am losing patience. i am losing kindness. i am almost losing love. i don't know which situation triggered all these. i am finding it hard to understand others. it felt difficult to even show them patience. and now, my relationships are affected just because i am all focused on myself. *sigh*

good thing i have this blog to vent out my emotions especially when there's no one to talk to. coz, everytime i feel this way, i always think nobody cares. they seem all too far away. *another sigh*

Back...

i have to write something in this blog or else it be totally forgotten.

i have to thank Kaith for reminding me that I have a blog to update. but because of busyness and pure laziness, i didn't have the time to check yesterday.

anyhow, i've been really busy in the office with requirements coming in from nowhere. hehe. i am not complaining though. i know i have to be grateful inspite of the economic depression, i am one of the few who still has an income and job. i BIG thank you to HIM up there.

i am also busy preparing for the BIG day. i need to do a lot of research for suppliers and other details. i know its still 9 months from now but time flies so fast and i don't want to procrastinate this time. not for my wedding!

i am also in dilemma as to which site we should use for wedding updates. i made one in blogspot but later on decided to make one in multiply as well. because of my complications, i have decided to use both :D Moyo won't mind for sure coz he won't be doing the updates anyway. he doesn't bug me as long as i am writing no-nonsense. both sites are still under construction and not updated. as soon as everything is in place, i will make it public so our friends can check.

so far, nothing much happening. starting now, i promise to visit my site often. i need to write some updates and do some tweaking. i've lost all my blogmates' sites :(

ciao for now!